2002-02-12, 9:50 a.m.: fortunately everything is fine....

He was pissed a/b going to the specialist yesterday, but I made him. The ride there was tense...I tried to make light of the situation by laughing and joking a/r. He got mad @ me and asked if I thought it was funny. I screamed @ him and told him that 'NO', I did not find any of this bull shit funny especially my effort to drag his sorry fucking ass to get the damn shit checked. I was pissed! He cooled off a/f that, and we went to see the man who would tell him his fate. Luckily, he said there was nothing to worry a/b and he burned the shit off him. He has to keep an eye on his spots as usual...but, this ones gone! He was very relieved and happy too and so was I.

I had this dream yesterday that I was running up this street, but it was so hard and I couldn't get anywhere. So as I felt I was in the same spot for ever, I ended up running through all these different scenes...a backyard, a bedroom, a closet. It was very strange. I've gotta check to see what relevance that may have to anything right now.

Yesterday I had my usual sex dream. I can't pin point what was going on, but I knew it was the dream cause I could sub-consciously feel it. I naturally orgasm when I have dreams like that so I'm aware of what's happening...I always wake up in a good mood. Come to think of it, I wasn't as stressed or tense yesterday as I normally would have been in a situation like that.

The phones are ringing off the hook today...it's enough to drive me crazy here. Thank god for my coffee!!!!

CLG aka CAT XXX